Transition causes me to question myself over and over. I don't always know who I am and I'm not completely comfortable in my own skin. It's a season for growing - but then again, will I ever know who I really am? In any case, self discovery can be painful at times, but rewarding in the long run. I'm thankful for close friends here that are supporting me through this self discovery.
School is no longer new, I am returning to a place I know...building, routines, books, and kids. The novelty of where I am has worn off and now I'm really living here. Sometimes I even have to remind myself why I am here...don't get me wrong, I love it in Buenos Aires...but its not all fun and games anymore and sometimes I begin to doubt. I think I need to make a sign to put by my light switch as a reminder that God brought me here for a reason, and I'm not always going to know why.
On a more cheerful note, we went to visit the children's home last weekend and it was lovely to see them again. I had missed them. Ale had been gone for 2 weeks and came back while we were visiting. When she saw us she ran to Donna and I and gave us both really big hugs! She has a special place in my heart. Those children remind me of my purpose and for a few hours I don't question myself.
Ahhh springtime is coming. Esperando a la primavera.
-kait
2 comments:
dear kaitlin,
I am happy that spring is coming. I am also happy to see that your smile is not empty anymore. It is a smile that is worth being full of life! I have been praying for you. I pray that this transition is over, that is goes well. That you continue to be strong through all the transition that may come your way.
You are a wonderful teacher. Remember that. God brought you there because you are going to change lives.
I am so glad for you that you got to go to the Childrens Home. The smile on your face talking about that (when we visited you) is the smile I hope you can see on yourself. Keep all those happy feelings and remember the time you have with them.
Thank you for posting, I look forward to your next post. I will continue to pray for you. I love you! You are a wonderful person, a fantastic teacher, and you are there for a reason. I am sorry that this response has taken so long but our internet goes away with the slightest of thunderstorms. So I have written it many times before the storm knocked out the interne and I lost the post.
I love you. Smile and see the joy in it that I see :)
love Jammie
or just Jamie haha
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